I came to this 16 x 20 cabin to find peace and perspective during a tumultuous time of many changes in my life. I came to simplify: work on my book, focus on my dogs and get perspective.
Over the last ten days, I've found just about the opposite. In that time, I've found heartache.
My heart aches for my children. Being away from them for the last two months has been difficult. There have been other struggles, but the distance from my kiddos combined with the consistent gray days in the eastern UP have dampened my spirit and made just about everything difficult.
I have considered folding on the season and selling out of dogs completely, but I am hanging by a thread, trying hard not to make any rash decisions and "stay the course."
I leave for Ohio this weekend, and will be so happy to see my girls.
How do women strike a balance between doing what we live to do, but being mothers as well? It is a struggle that I don't pretend to know the answer to. I've been criticized by some for my decision to come here, and those criticisms have been difficult to hear.
No one can possibly know the things that brought me here or understand why I have done the things I have done. I don't know what the future holds, but I will be relieved to be home for Christmas with my family.
Follow your heart and your dream, O courageous one. It can be done. It isn't necessary to chase either, simply be still and listen, and the answer, elusive as always, will be within your grasp, just as a butterfly alights on a still and open hand.
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